Swimming Lesson
the day I almost drowned
mother pulled me out
of the ocean by my hair
the world blurry with seawater
air wet and my lips blue without
I was not sure
I was alive – my eight-year-old
chest tight and sore
it surprised me
how quick
the surrender
underwater
I could see myself
a baby in a bubble
ultrasound
the bubble simmered
a tiny heart pulsed
in and out like a wave
it didn’t count
that sun once baked my skin
to contentment
that I liked cats or yellow jumpers
stitches prepared
to unravel
start again – I resurfaced on sand
little sister knelt beside me
father called my name
wanting to die
salty droplets
trembled on my skin
Credits
Directed by Matthew Thompson.
"Swimming Lesson" from Eat or We Both Starve (Carcanet Press, 2021). Reproduced with permission of Carcanet Press.